In addition to being an awful bitch, I have been feeling extremely extremely tired lately. I have never had a big problem waking up in the mornings. However, that has changed. Waking up in the morning to go to work is turning into a massive struggle. Especially when I can hear my mother’s alarm clock go off (before my wake up call) and am always jolted to awakeness.

I feel that it is really harder and harder for me to identify with other people. I feel that it is more and more difficult to tell someone how I feel and what I think because I always experience roadblocks. I get blank stares or non committal responses.

Awful is not a sociable girl. Awful really hates about the entire world for no good reason and she wants to hate them just because. She is really always grumpy and bitchy and always wants to look on the dark side. Awful IS unhappy. Fake Awful does laugh and smile because she knows that people will not care if she does not. But for those she really really likes, she wants them to be happy. She wants to keep them close. Awful is an introvert. She is not fake Awful.