Do you remember your first crush? Your first love? Your first kiss? Not really do you?

I had the biggest crush on Daniel Chan when I was in secondary school. Who is that you may ask? He came into fame around the same time as Nicholas Tse. Yes I am that old. He was so cute. Like totally formulated Japanese/Taiwanese/Chinese heartthrob cute that sells magazines, movies and CDs even if there is a lack of certain talent. Apparently he could sing, somehow but of course I did not care much about that. Teenage daydreams about pretty boys. Which girl did not have those?

The dreams from real life. What you learn from movies, songs, books. How a boy is supposed to treat you on a date. How a boy asks you out. Hand holding. Kisses. How a girl goes all coy when a boy is around. Leaning the head on the shoulder. It all bursts in flames and into thin vapour once the cold water of reality hits you.

I just watched a movie, one of Stephen Chow and Shu Qi (so hot!) and Daniel Chan were in it. Watching the once teeny bop screen hunk on screen, I just want to be back when I was a kid. When it seemed that everyone grew up into the happy ending that they deserved. When it was all wishing and hoping and even when it did not work out, you continued wishing and hoping because you believed that it would happen one day.

Do you understand how it is? To wish to attain this perfect-ness in your life.