Of all places to see her again, we bumped into each other in Butter’s toilet. I was at the sinks just waiting for Xin bebe and suddenly I felt eyes on me. The queue waiting to use to toilet was long and snaked along the wall. I was wearing socks with my new wedges so I thought it was the usual disapproval from other females about my choice of footwear and hosiery. For some reason, she looked familiar, then I realised who she was exactly.

She smiled. For a minute, I wonder what to do. But I decided to be a bigger person, after all, it has been 9 years and I am more mature. Or should be more mature because I am still older than her. So I walked towards her

She said she met up with Mas occasionally. I knew that but just nodded along. She said she heard that I was doing well. I explained that I just changed my job. But she said she meant my temper. I had to bite my tongue. I lost my temper all the time back then only because of her. But I just smiled. She said that she heard from Mas that someone was courting me, plenty of boys. I just looked at her and wondered why things were this way, she said I could get my contact from Mas for anything, I didn’t bother to get her number. Luckily my phone was with Xin bebe. I tried to make small talk about how hot it was inside Butter. When it finally got to the point when I had to go, I just grabbed her shoulder. I couldn’t bring myself to hug her.

I can’t remember what we used to talk about. I can’t remember how it was like, when we were on good terms and when things soured. But I know that after nine years, the hurt is still there.